Jesy Nelson has opened up about attempting to take her own life, after vile comments from trolls became too much.
The Little Mix star, who has fronted documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out – about surviving cruel taunts – explained she was almost obsessed with reading critical social media posts about herself.
But she was at her lowest point after a performance with her bandmates on X Factor, in 2013, when she felt she couldnt take it any longer.
In a candid chat, the 28-year-old said: I felt that I physically couldnt tolerate the pain any more.
She told her family, her management and her bandmates about what happened, but once it was spoken about, it wasnt ever spoken about again.
Jesy also revealed she would often starve herself before events and photoshoots, hoping to see positive comments, before binge-eating and hating herself.
Despite being offered time off, she told the Guardian she refused to take it, out of fear she would draw attention to herself with the absence.
Our schedule was so gruelling. I was going to see a therapist at six oclock in the morning, crying, and then going to a photoshoot, she continued.
I felt I had to be this person who was like … “I dont care what people are saying about me, Im this strong woman.” That was the role I had to take on in the group, when really I was an absolute mess.
Things changed a few months later, when Little Mix toured with Demi Lovato across America.
It was then a dancer urged Jesy to turn her back on Twitter, and delete her account for her own good.
Dont get me wrong, I still have days when I feel s**t in myself but instead of beating myself up about it and being miserable, I think: “OK, Im going to have my moment of being sad, and Ill be over it”, she added. Before, I didnt let myself be sad.
Now Im mentally a lot happier, I just think people are always going to have an opinion. But I only care about mine.
Jesy announced her BBC documentary earlier this year, hoping to look at growing up in a social media-fueled age and how this affects mental health.
Confirming the programme in March, she told her huge Instagram following: ThiRead More – Source